Today I didn't do a lot, simply because it wasn't the sort of day to do something. When the sky is both blue and granite and not even she can decide what to do, I often feel it is safer for me to sit tight and wait out the sunny storm than to venture into the palpable uncertainty of the day. So I hunkered down in Waterstone's, and whiled away the time reading, drawing, people-watching, and day-dreaming. Sabrina joined me later on in the afternoon, and we chatted away for a dimly outlined hour.
Actually, I think I did most of the talking. That seems to happen whenever I meet up with Sabrina: it's not that she doesn't like to talk, it's just that she is such a wonderful listener that she lets me keep talking! As anyone who vaguely knows me will inform you, I will talk from dusk til dawn about everything from dusk to dawn and all the sun witnesses in between. I am grateful to her for letting me gabble on and on! I do try to regulate my conversation, and sometimes I force myself to shush because I am sure people get tired of hearing my opinion, but at other times it's just impossible! There are so many thoughts that are flailing their hands in the air in my mind, trying to grab my attention and begging to be let out! I'm quite fond of them, so often they get their way. Apologies to all who have borne (and all who will in the future have to bear) the brunt of my ebullient tongue. (Isn't ebullient a beautiful word? It's my new favourite.) I'm excited to be someone's eccentric aunt: that stereotypical aunt who is notorious in the family for latching onto unfortunate young teenage nephews and nieces and keeping them by her side the whole night for extensive conversation about anything and everything.
The only other eventful things that happened today were the addition of chopped almonds to my stir-fry salad, and the purchase of bread. To be fair, these seemingly mediocre events inspired much happiness in my soul, but I'm not sure if they can really be classified as blog-post worthy. I suppose I have viewed similar events as cause to celebrate in previous blogs, so I shouldn't start dismissing them now, should I? Ah the joys of blog ethics.
The other thing I wanted to note in this blog was a short list of what I'm thankful for right in this moment. Obviously, the list is infinite. If every moment is a blessing then there is no moment in this lifetime, or my soul's lifetime (one which I believe extends on into eternity), which I should not be thankful for. Right now, though, there are a few things I am especially grateful for:
- my flowers, trying valiantly to stay beautiful in the face of certain death. I don't know if I will have the heart to throw them away. It's such a violent act, throwing away flowers. Just because they are no longer as beautiful as they once were, we get rid of them. They were dead the minute we ripped them from their plant, and so we can't argue that we're discarding them because they're dead. Poor souls. I will keep them until they start to smell, and then I will release their souls from the stench they are trapped in, and all will be well.
- Toby. He is still standing by me, 18 years from when he first arrived! Do you think that the teddies we form the strongest bonds with are the ones that chose us? Maybe some of us are lucky enough to be found by our soul-teddy. Is there such a thing as a soul-teddy? Not a soul-mate, but a soul-teddy. I believe that Toby found me, and though fate brought him to me, I think that my soul must have been searching for him in order for fate to find me and give him in particular to me.
- WhatsApp. It may seem as if life without the internet would be blissful, but I am so grateful for the quick messages I can send to family back home, and to friends all over the world. Times have changed and the media needs to change with them, though I think the struggle is and will be ensuring that the core values that accompany our lives remain constant as the times and media evolve.
- my notebooks and paper and my new black pen (which will probably be finished quite soon because I use it so much!)
- LIFE!
Actually, I think I did most of the talking. That seems to happen whenever I meet up with Sabrina: it's not that she doesn't like to talk, it's just that she is such a wonderful listener that she lets me keep talking! As anyone who vaguely knows me will inform you, I will talk from dusk til dawn about everything from dusk to dawn and all the sun witnesses in between. I am grateful to her for letting me gabble on and on! I do try to regulate my conversation, and sometimes I force myself to shush because I am sure people get tired of hearing my opinion, but at other times it's just impossible! There are so many thoughts that are flailing their hands in the air in my mind, trying to grab my attention and begging to be let out! I'm quite fond of them, so often they get their way. Apologies to all who have borne (and all who will in the future have to bear) the brunt of my ebullient tongue. (Isn't ebullient a beautiful word? It's my new favourite.) I'm excited to be someone's eccentric aunt: that stereotypical aunt who is notorious in the family for latching onto unfortunate young teenage nephews and nieces and keeping them by her side the whole night for extensive conversation about anything and everything.
The only other eventful things that happened today were the addition of chopped almonds to my stir-fry salad, and the purchase of bread. To be fair, these seemingly mediocre events inspired much happiness in my soul, but I'm not sure if they can really be classified as blog-post worthy. I suppose I have viewed similar events as cause to celebrate in previous blogs, so I shouldn't start dismissing them now, should I? Ah the joys of blog ethics.
The other thing I wanted to note in this blog was a short list of what I'm thankful for right in this moment. Obviously, the list is infinite. If every moment is a blessing then there is no moment in this lifetime, or my soul's lifetime (one which I believe extends on into eternity), which I should not be thankful for. Right now, though, there are a few things I am especially grateful for:
- my flowers, trying valiantly to stay beautiful in the face of certain death. I don't know if I will have the heart to throw them away. It's such a violent act, throwing away flowers. Just because they are no longer as beautiful as they once were, we get rid of them. They were dead the minute we ripped them from their plant, and so we can't argue that we're discarding them because they're dead. Poor souls. I will keep them until they start to smell, and then I will release their souls from the stench they are trapped in, and all will be well.
- Toby. He is still standing by me, 18 years from when he first arrived! Do you think that the teddies we form the strongest bonds with are the ones that chose us? Maybe some of us are lucky enough to be found by our soul-teddy. Is there such a thing as a soul-teddy? Not a soul-mate, but a soul-teddy. I believe that Toby found me, and though fate brought him to me, I think that my soul must have been searching for him in order for fate to find me and give him in particular to me.
- WhatsApp. It may seem as if life without the internet would be blissful, but I am so grateful for the quick messages I can send to family back home, and to friends all over the world. Times have changed and the media needs to change with them, though I think the struggle is and will be ensuring that the core values that accompany our lives remain constant as the times and media evolve.
- my notebooks and paper and my new black pen (which will probably be finished quite soon because I use it so much!)
- LIFE!
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